Ninjas are the bomb ♥

Fuck, just seeing your beautiful face makes me fall in love with you. Fucker! I hate that I love you.

I just want everything to work out and for us to find love and such :(

Dying inside but hiding it with a smile so you can see that I can go on without you, maybe someday you’ll miss me, better hope I’m still willing

I should ignore my hurt feelings and be a total dick face and just find another boy to kiss and hold me tight, but never again will I get so attached!

Because all the tears I’ve cried for you, all the apologies, all the sorrow, all the fears of being left without you, all the LOVE I’ve tried to prove to you hasn’t done what I wanted it to: to show you we can make it through this.

All it’s done is left me depressed, angry, shocked, afraid, and empty,

And pushed you, my darling you, further away from me.

I wish my personality was good enough.
I wish I was cute enough.
I wish I was funny enough.
I wish I could make you smile.
I wish you didn’t want to lose me.
I wish I was beautiful enough.
I wish everything I gave you was enough.
I wish you were hurting as much as I am.
I wish I was as important to you as you are to me.
Above all, I wish you loved me like you said you did.

How can your feelings for me just disappear?

I miss Javier Eric Medina so terribly /: I don’t care what anyone thinks, I love him with all my heart and I just want him back :( I hope that deep down inside he misses me and loves me enough to take me back :(

on all other social media i’m all like “ahahahahaha i’m so happy haha” but on tumblr my followers know that i’m actually depressed as fuck :(